"Good morning Boss. Here are the decisions you will make today, and why. Sign here and I shall log them."
Ridiculous? Yet it is true. If you think ‘I would not sign it then think about this:
Inside your own head sits a thing I call the press secretary. It is the part which cannot keep up in real time, so after something happens, the Press Secretary is wheeled out to justify and make sense of what just happened.
By the time you hear what is coming out of your mouth, events have already moved on and ‘you’ has been updated. You know this happens - the above framing simply makes it un-kissable (a typo, but one I kept. LOL).
I am not angry; I am just tired.
I did not avoid it. I ran out of time.
I did not want it, anyway.
Every one of these can be a briefing. A decision was pre-formed by a part of you that was already moving before the words arrived, and then the press secretary got wheeled out to put a tidy reason on top.
So practice becoming consciously incompetent - able to witness in horror as the same old stories are fed to the gallery
Over time, move toward conscious competence - stilted awkward attempts at sitting in presence and articulating what is actually happening, right now, in the body (first), then mind.
Because it is the body which works in real time.
No wonder there is such a gut aversion to witnessing the disgraceful weaving and dodging that takes place on our news feeds day in and day out. The aversion is there because some part of the self has rejected that ‘I’ is also capable of such slithering.
It is neither good nor bad, just pre-conscious.
So consider making a conscious intention to put that Press Secretary out of a job, soon.